yes it's a little bit funny, this feeling inside - it's a Christmas feeling. It's an excited tingling lovely, warm feeling that occasionally bursts out of me in eruptions of giggles and bouncing and singing and shouting. Christmas is the celebration of the birth of my saviour, here on our lowly little planet!
He was sent for me and you and the story is just so fantastic, so incredible that we still re-tell it every year in many many ways - 2000 years on!!
It's difficult to imagine sometimes, my heavenly father being born as a baby. A little - fully dependent, naive and of course innocent baby. Totally vulnerable, totally needy and totally reliant upon his teen mother and an adopted father! If you heard the story today - you might infer many things from that introduction but it just shows it's important to hear a whole story before you decide what it's about. Recently I've been thinking more about my story, I know people won't be talking about me in 2000 years but it doesn't mean I shouldn't make the most of my time here on this lowly little planet. I really should stop putting an ending on my story, when it has only just begun!
Wonderful wonderful church on Sunday at the Forge, totally inspirational and moving. I have been caught in this loop of guilt, try, quit, guilt many times - looks like Sunday caught me at a time when I was blindly crawling back in to guilt! yaaay!
Today brought a visit from our local vicar, a really lovely lady who spends so much of her time visiting others and really caring about their lives! I am amazed to be honest that she wanted to visit again at all - the house is such a tip! it was in a state the last time she visited also! thankfully she is such a gentle lovely person, that despite my hangups I can invite her in and drink tea with her and chat away without feeling that she is judging my lack of tidiness.
my birthday this weekend and a chance to spend time with friends and family! It's going to be brill!
well I hope you don't mind that I put down in words, how wonderful life is!
kitten out xx
