well hello there, it's 2:02 am and I am here up and awake and writing my blog. Tonight's insomnia (not unusual for me personally) may be due to any of a number of factors or even all of them coupled together - here are just a few possibilities:-
1) I am very excited because tomorrow, well really it's today now...I'm getting baptised in the sea at Sizewell. This is nothing short of a bit of a miracle to be honest given that I have a bit of a fear of getting my face under water and a bigger fear of getting anything in my ears. I also didn't decide my self until 4 days ago, so it's been a whirlwind and ever since I have felt quite low at times and quite panicky at others about it all. The devil keeps trying to tell me reasons not to do it - but then that is exactly what he wants so it's exactly the opposite to what I'm going to do :-p
2) I'm also very excited about our adventure to France which starts next Saturday. We're doing like a little mini tour and it's all just beginning to get close now so aaarrrrrggghhh! We looked at some maps etc before bed so there was no way I was going to sleep then! I'm too crazy for my own good?!
3) keep thinking about the future at the moment, it's all just too big to think about really but when I try not to it just gets bigger lol
4) I went shopping today for summer clothes, charity shops of course - what can I say, I loves it I do!
5) I haven't prayed properly about this! - I know it's silly now I'm writing it but my head gets so crazy when I feel unable to sleep, definitely feel like it's a spiritual attack of some sort, after all it's not normal for me not to be able to pray - I usually chatter away to him like nobody's business!, except his business obviously!
I have had a really lovely weekend so far, so who knows - with a bit of sleep it may get even better,
night for now chickens,
kitten out x
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